TURNING TWO!!!

 The day started out with being a total nightmare for me, Wade was crying and fussy all day. I literally could not put him down for a second without him losing his mind and even while I held him he was losing his mind. I was on the brink of a nervous breakdown and to make it worse I got my period the day before so I knew I wasn't even going to be able to go swimming with Macie for her birthday which made me so sad. However some how thorough all the insanity and frustration the swimming party turned out to be awesome and even my cake that fell apart ended up being delicious. We ended up doing presents for Macie when Mark came home for lunch as we asked that no presents be brought to her birthday party as she already has so many toys. We mostly just got her books and puzzles and also ended up being bad parents and gave her her big Christmas present that we couldn't fit in the vehicle, to take with us at Christmas, to her as a Birthday Present. Good thing she wouldn't know the difference this year. Then that night we headed to the pool where we invited all of our friends, a good chunk of people showed up. The Isackson's, Kuehn's, Jeanotte's, Fyfe's, Bennett's and the Swendsen's. Then we headed back to our house for cake and ice cream, the Passey's showed up for that part. Even though Mom was stressed to the max, thankfully the Birthday girl had a great day and loved everything about getting spoiled with presents, swimming, friends and cake. I am so glad I kept her party low key and easy this year, I couldn't imagine if I had planned to go all out and my day ended up like it did how I would have done it all. I am really starting to like this outlook on life of making things simple and stress free.

someone is in slide heaven

she knew exactly what to do

MEETING SANTA!!!!

This little munchkin was to die for cute yesterday at the Devon children's Christmas Party. We started with some snacks and a show and Macie snuggled on my lap and munched on her treats the whole time. She was such a good girl. Then Santa made his appearance and Macie was so excited, she ran right up to him. I told her she had to wait her turn and every time they pulled a new present out she would get a little closer, she was so good though and waited so patiently especially when her name was almost called last. She got right up onto Santa's lap and was not scared at all. She of course though wouldn't smile for me, she wouldn't even lift her head up. She then carried her present to an open spot and knew exactly what to do, and started opening it up right away. She was excited that it was "color" and can't wait to play with it tomorrow with her.

Fun Night

A couple months ago Macie and I started this fun little tradition at night. Not every night, usually about 2 nights a week. Macie sometimes struggles with falling a asleep at night especially if she has had a nap. I would go in to check on her and would ask her if she wanted mommy to snuggle, in her adorable little voice she would reply OK. I would crawl into her bed and sing songs and try to get her to fall asleep. In the beginning it worked, if she didn't fall asleep she would at least calm down and fall asleep shortly after I left. Lately though she has really been struggling to fall asleep if she has had a nap so it has turned into a little bit more of a bonding time with mommy. I will crawl into bed and we usually start with talking to each other. She talks to me about all her stuffies and there names, then she likes to inform me where all the parts on my face are. Then we proceed to sing songs, she is getting so good at singing them with me. Especially once there was a snowman. Macie's version is snowman snowman snowman, tall tall, sun he melted melted melted melted melted small. So stinkin adorable. Usually by this time I then leave and she shortly falls asleep, last night however she really didn't want to fall asleep and it turned into one of the best nights ever. Just as I was ready to leave I gave her a hug and kiss and we said our I love you's and then Macie started to tickle me. I laughed and tickeled her back. This went on for about 10 minutes and we started getting really loud, so Mark came in to see what all the fun was about. He opened the door and in a deep joking voice "What is going on in here" Mom "Macie, sh sh sh dad caught us oh no be quit or he is gonna get us. Macie jumps off my tummy and snuggles into my arms saying "sh sh". Mark "You to better get to bed". Mark closes the door and Macie has now discovered a fun game to stay awake. She jumps on my belly and in a super load voice says "tickle tickle tickle" and try's to tickle me, I laugh super load, then she jumps of my tummy snuggles into me and says "sh sh sh, daddy is coming". We laughed and giggled together for a good 15 minutes while we played the "Daddy is coming" game. Macie didn't end up falling asleep until 10:30 last night but for an amazing memory like that with my daughter who cares. I think I was having more fun then her, and I will remember last night and the fun we had together forever. 

Not Going to Sugar Coat It!!

A couple weeks ago in church we had a lesson on facing trials and challenges. Our Young Womens President Sylvia Franklin gave a comment on how as a society we are not as close to our friends and family as we use to be, and how we have less and less friends then we use to because of social media. She said how this article she read pointed out that on social media websites we only post good pictures of ourselves, only talk about the raises we have gotten or the better jobs, the bigger houses we have bought, the new fancy vehicle we are driving,  how wonderful our children are. Pretty much to sum it up how perfectly wonderful our lives our, and how everybody needs to be jealous of it. Because of these everybody is endlessly comparing themselves to everybody else, which when we do this it makes it hard to make true friends and grow our friendships within our families.  Such an interesting point and something that I had never thought about before, but it makes total sense. So with that in mind instead of posting a blog posts of a cute picture of my son and say how much I love him I am going to be real and raw about our life with Wade so far. It started out wonderful, we love him, he is handsome and adorable and wonderful to snuggle with. However thing after thing keeps creeping up on us with him. First having to stop breast feeding, although he is not projectile vomiting anymore he still spits up all day everyday. Then not wanting to sleep in his bed leaving night after night of not getting good sleeps. Once we fixed that the real stress came on, NEVER wanting to be put down. Unless he is sleeping he needs to be held 24/7. I never knew this could even be a stress with a baby. His cry is so loud and so deafening to our ears that it is almost impossible to let him fuss it out. He always looks like he is in so much pain and agony. It is hard to see smiles on his face, always this look of mom I don't feel good. I have never been so confused with my feelings. I love this little man so much and ache that he is in so much pain, but it is to the point now where even if he is not crying I can still hear his screams ringing in my ears. This past week in particular has been rough. Macie has had a wierd little stomach flu, we have been so busy with callings, vemma, Mark's work and trying to get ready for Christmas and you realize how it is impossible to get those things done with a child screaming at the top of his lungs all day, or having to hold him and then you really can't get them done. I actually feel the worst for Macie she is being so neglected and I hate that, we have such a wonderful relationship and have so much fun together and I hate that I have not got to spend any quality time with her this week. She plays by herself, or watches a show (which I hate more then anything), or is in my face (which I can't blame her )but add a screaming baby as well and I am about ready to go mad. I am hoping that this just turns out to be one of the worst honeymoon stages ever and things can settle down eventually. The only thing that gets me through it all right now is prayers to my Savior, and my amazing husband. I didn't want to write this so everybody could feel bad for me, it is life and we will get through it and when it is all said and done it will be an experience that hopefully only made me a better person and mine and Mark's relationship even stronger. I just wanted to mostly write it for memory sake, when we look back and see how we grew from this and how small of a challenge this was compared to what we will face in the future and like I said to not sugar coat it, to not show off to everyone that life is perfect because right now it definitely is not.

Wade's Baby Blessing

What a wonderful, peaceful, stress free day. We woke up, got ready took a couple pictures and then went to church and enjoyed the beautiful blessing Mark gave to Wade. He was such a good boy and didn't make a peep, which was so nice. I didn't think this colicky little boy was going to be quite for us but once again we had a no crying blessing. He looked so handsome in his outfit, and Macie looked so pretty in her dress. I just love my little family and moments like these in our life. I kept it so stress free this year and we didn't do any big events afterwards or the day before. Just a small dinner afterwards with my parents and I have to say I really enjoyed not being stressed and just enjoying the day and the importance of the blessing.

Memory sake

I wanted to write this for memory sake. Since probably the spring Macie has wanted to go down the water slide in Lloydminster by herself. I was of course a little hesitant on that and not sure how it would work well finally tonight after going down time and time again and Macie endlessly trying to push me away we finally let her go. I went to the bottom and Mark took her to the top he let her go and just stuck close by and when she finally got to the last part with the big dip she came barreling down with the biggest smile on her face came into my arms went completely under the water came up and within seconds said again again with the biggest smile on her face . She is definitely going to be a daredevil and I am excited and scared at the same time for all the adventures she will have in life because of it.

Vemma's Bode 12 week Challenge

I am so pumped as today I got the go ahead from the Doc to start working out again. Obviously start slow and work my way up, I am not going to start running 5KM's today but long hard walks and a little bit of muscle toning. As well I am going to do Chris and Heidi Powell's 12 week weight loss challenge. It is a program they started up with Vemma's Bode Line. I love the program and the products. It teaches us to eat 5 small healthy meals a day, and incorporate exercise into our daily life. I love that they don't make you take a pill that supresses your appetite and makes you not hungry for 3 months you lose a bunch of weight and then gain it all back once you are done. It teaches good life long eating habits and encourages working out. It blows my mind how many weight lose programs have you not work out because of the foods you are eating or pills you are taking. That to me is a huge red flag that it is not healthy for your body. I know I know I am doing a bit of promoting my product here, but I love Vemma and I wouldn't sale it if I didn't, and I definitely wouldn't go on the weight loss program if I didn't believe it was good for my body. So hear is to the start of getting my pre-Wade body back and energy level back. I am positive when I get up to running my first 5 KM's it will blow my mind how I ever ran 21KM's but I know I can get back there again and I can't wait. I LOVE RUNNING!!!!

This Picture is my Desktop Picture on my LapTop for Motivation

Christmas Fun!!

Today was all about Christmas. Setting the Tree up as a family, Decorating a Gingerbread house, listening to Christmas Music, Watching A Mickey's Christmas Carol and finally Mark and I heading to the Devon Christmas Party while my wonderful cousin Joci and her daughter Gillian came and babysat Macie and Wade. Such a great day and I love making memories like these and enjoying moments like this with my wonderful family.