CRUMBLING

Do you ever feel like your life is pointless, useless senseless. That you are going no where in life and accomplishing nothing. You have no friends and no life. You are just a fluff from a dandelion, of no worth and no use, and the one task you have been given in life you are so terrible at that you felt if your children got to choose again they would pick a different mother. Every day is the same thing get up, feed children, clean house,  yell at children, clean up puke, yell at children some more, feed children, clean house,  clean up puke, yell at children.  Just this same everyday routine of nonsense. Ugh how do you get out of that rut, how do you find Joy in doing the same boring things day in and day out. I don't mean that my children don't bring me Joy, they bring me more happiness and Joy then I can imagine, however the same boring stuff day in and day out is driving me crazy. Maybe it is just those winter blues talking, I hope it is just those winter blues talking. Maybe I should stop now before I say more and people think even that much less of me.