A LONG PERSONAL POST.

I find in my life that I am a pretty happy person in general, however today I seem to have the blues. It does not help that I am getting a little bit of a cold, so I was not able to enjoy all of church and the beautiful weather God blessed us with today, however I think there is another reason.
When Mark and I first found out we told nobody, expect my parents, however it seems like I tell more and more people everyday. Why I don't know it really just makes it harder, but at the same time I can't keep acting like everything is great. Don't get me wrong I really do love my life, my job, my husband, my wonderful puppies, and the list goes on and on of the incredible life my Heavenly Father has given me. However I think I finally had that break down today when you really realize the thing you want most in life is not happening and you don't know if it is ever going to happen. I know if I really wanted to I can keep putting on that same smile everyday that I always do, thinking life is wonderful, Mark and I are having so much fun doing whatever we want, and my puppies make me happy enough, but I know deep down it is not true, and that if I keep living like this I will eventually break one day.
I am so sorry to be posting such a sad post today and I don't want anybody to think I am going crazy and am depressed, because I promise I am really not, I just think I have finally realized, I need to stop having such an oh well attitude to the fact that we don't have any children and start really looking into what Mark and I can do. I truly have been selfish, enjoying the money, the trips, the toys. Thinking if it happens it happens, not any more, if it comes down to it I will sell it all to pay 15,000 for invitro or 10,000 to adopt. It is worth every penny. My Life is Great and I am so blessed, but I can't just sit back and think if the Lord wants it to happen it will happen. Mark and I need to do all that we can to make it happen. For my friends that read this post, for those of you who didn't now know now Mark and I are having problems, please don't ask me what problems, ask me so how are things going in getting pregnant, or looking into adoption. This will hopefully only be recieved with positive feedback as the other question is always negative.
I apologize if I offended anyone with this post or some found it to personal, but it felt good to say and I am excited to start really looking into what we can do.

THE BOUNCE HOUSE!!!!

So you might be wondering what in the heck that title means, we'll it is the name of the business Myself and Mark are starting up here in Lloydminster. Yes to makes our life just that much crazier.
The idea of the business came about last May, but we chickened out when an Insurance broker told us it was a bad idea and we would get sued a lot. So we left it alone and went on with our life, it always seemed to creep its way back in. People would say things or we would meet people who do it or would talk to people about businesses and told them of our idea and they would say what a great idea. So after much contemplation and talking to others who own that type of business we have decided to full out pursue it.
Our Business License is bought, We got our Business cards and other Office supplies in the mail today, and the best thing we finally ordered the actuall Bounce House unit today. It should be coming any day. We are so excited, I fell like a little kid in a candy store buying all these fun things for our business. We truly have no idea what kind of sales it is going to do, but hope for only the best. The best part about it is that if it doesn't work out we have the funniest toy to play with in our backyard, not to mention we will be the funniest Aunt and Uncle of all time. We are hoping it might lure are nieces and nephews to come up more often. The kids can play in the bounce house well the adults relax in the Hot Tub.
So I guess wish us luck or "The Bounce House" luck, oh and if you want a fun toy for your kids birthday party give us a call. See already trying to advertise.

TRYING TO BE CRAFTY!!!!

So once again I have tried to be crafty, don't know if I could say I failed but deffinately not as cute as I wanted it to be.
However I did manage to keep it under my $10 budget. There was some cuter material I wanted to buy at Michaels but it was so expensive, thus my project not being as successful as I wanted it to be.
I give it a 5.5 out of 10. Mostly though I am just proud of myself for trying something new, and learning what not to do for next time. That is one thing I am enjoying about trying to be crafty lately, I am always learning what not to do, hopefully one day I will get it so right that I will not be wishing I did something different but happy with the total outcome.

Kalinda

MARK'S BIRTHDAY!!!

So the love of my life is celebrating his 28th birthday tomorrow. I can not believe how old we are getting. He has been such an amazing companion and a wonderful friend. I could not have asked for a better person to be married to. Kind, loving, generous, funny, sweet, not the most romantic, but makes up for it by making me laugh everyday.
Thank you Royall and Katelyn for helping me with ideas.
The final birthday surprise is first a big giant birthday card with chocolate bars being used as some of the words, and a Key Lime Pie for sunday dessert when he gets home from Edmonton.
Thanks for the help in making that wonderful man happy.

Here is a picture of the card I made for him Lily Helping make Mark's birthday Card..

FLORIDA!!!!!

I can't wait Florida is only 2 1/2 months away. I am getting so pumped. I write my final exam and them we leave the next day for a two week vacation in Florida. Which includes a 2 day cruise of the Caribbean. I have never planned so much before for a vacation. Hopefully all the planning pays off to a fun filled vacation. We hope to hit the Nasa Space Centre, Disney World, Sea World, Universal and some beaches.

I was hoping though if anybody has been there before, if they could give me some tips of fun places to go, and places we wouldn't miss. That would be most appreciated, as there is so much to do there.

We'll I should go work out so I can look good in my bathing suite. 10 more pounds to go to reach my goal weight for our vacation.

Kalinda

A LITTLE HELP!!!!!

Okay for anybody out there who does read my blogs, I need some help. It is Mark's birthday this month and I want to do something special for him to let him now how much I love him. However we are going to Florida in less than 3 months and don't have a ton of extra money to throw around as we still have lots to save.
Anybody have any good ideas for a fun date, or gift I could give Mark that lets him know how much I care for him but does not go over a budget of $30.
I would really appreciate the help.Oh and Mark never reads my blog so don't worry about him finding out.

this is a picture of the cutey you will help make happy. Know who wouldn't want to see that smile again, because he got the best birthday gift or surprise for really cheap.

TO BORING!!!!

Oh my goodness this week has been so boring. I have worked the past four shifts at work all by myself except for 3 hours. I feel bad for Maria my part time, because I don't think I shut up for the whole 3 hours I worked with her. As well work has been so slow, this has to be the slowest week we have ever had. My poor hubby also got an ear full the other night. He is so sweet though, I could tell he was exhausted and just wanted to fall asleep, but I could not help my talking.
Even with how boring my week has been, it is deffinately better than last week's craziness. Actually besides work being dreadfully boring things have been going really well this week.
I ran 4 miles last night and have never felt better. I still can't believe how different I feel with just one month of working out and eating healthy.
Benefits
I get so much more sleep at night, thus feeling less tired throughout the day.
I have lossed 10 pounds and can no longer fit into my fat pants.
I can run 4 miles and not feel tired and sore only have more energy and want to run another 4 tonight maybe even 5.
Feel better about myself and are making so many better decisions in my whole life. I find myself hardly ever wasting time. I spend no more than 20 minutes a day on the Internet checking e-mails and blogs. The rest of my time is spent working, studying, exercising, eating healthy, reading, pre-paring for talks and the Adult sunday school lesson ( so nervous doing it this sunday for the first time in my life) walking my dogs and spending quality time with my hubby.
Look at me I am so bored I have rambled on for two more paragraphs.
We'll I should go pay some invoices, probably should not even be bloging at work, but can't help it so BORED!!!!

FROM GOOD TO BAD!!!!

So the other week I had one of the best weeks of my life, as some of you might have read on my Blog. We'll this week proved to be not as successful.
So many things happened in my family that were scary, sad and stressful.

My Brother and Sister in Law 3 months ago had a beautiful little baby girl, she has been such a fun baby for them, last week though she was coming down with a flu and not feeling all that great, all of a sudden Kendra goes from bad to worse. She was getting so sick, she could hardly breath on her own. They had to call an Ambulance and rush her to emergency. She was on Oxygen for 4 days and they ran a ton of tests on her. She finally got better and is at home with her family. It was a very scary first day though when we heard the news. I have never prayed so hard for my little niece to be okay and to stay her on this earth with her beautiful family. My savior was deffinately listening to my prayers and the prayers of the rest of our family to protect her and watch over her.

So finally all of that craziness went away and then the next sad thing happens in our family.
My wonderful sister has wanted nothing more in her life than to have her own children. I think from the time she was probably 9 that is what she dreamed about being, an amazing mother to lots of her children. When she got married, her and her hubby started trying and it was not happening. They ran some tests and Dr's told them it would likely not happen. So they started Fostering children to adopt. Finally after some research they were able to fix there problem, only to have another problem preventing them from carrying babies. This week my sister was going in for a minor 1/2 hr surgery. At the end there was maybe some hope that if things went well they could possibly have there own children. But of course not ,Not only did they find out they can for sure never have there own, they also can not do a Seraget. I love my savior more than anything, but sometimes I don't understand why he is taking this dream away from my Sister. I know there is a reason for everything, but this one just baffles me.

Then I have another wonderful sister how had some horrable person, hurt her feelings, just saying awful things about her, and if you know my sister Terra, you would know that there is not an awful thought or feeling you can have towards her. I believe it is someone who is just jealous of this amazing, wonderful women.

Then I have a brother who was sued for a vehicle he sold to some crazy lady, this court case has been going on for about a year or maybe longer. This whole time they were told she won't win and don't stress about it, we'll what happens she wins and they have to pay her a lot of money.

At the end of this awful week I can do nothing but feel helpless and cry. I have been so blessed to have such an amazing family, we have been there for each other through thick and thin. All of us brothers and sisters have gone through some really hard times but we rallied together and helped each other. This week I felt completely helpless being as far away from my Family as I am. All of my Brothers and Sisters went through such a hard time this week, and here I am in Lloydminster, where things could not be better and life is going great, and they are all suffering and going through some of the hardest times in there life. I know prayer is the strongest tool I have to use right now, but I just feel that it is not enough and I need to do more to be there for them.

If any of my sibling read this Blog, please know I love you so much and have been fasting and praying for all of you. Know that this is only a trial you are going through to make you stronger, and closer to your Savior. Rely on his strength and pray to him for your own strength. This goes for anybody who is going through a hard trial right now. Like I said at the end of one of my blogs before with God all things are possible.

Love Kalinda

MY POUCHES!!!

So I love my two dogs more than anything. They make me so happy, and fill that void of not having children. They keep me happy, busy, active. I never thought an animal could make me feel so good. My favorite thing is in the morning when Mark leaves for work I usually have another whole hour of sleep, because there is more room in the bed you would think the pouches would sproull all out, but no not my Lily and Molly. Especially Lily she comes and snuggles right into my arms as close as she can get. Molly always snuggles into my side. It makes my hour of sleep less comfy, but at the same time makes it the hardest thing to get up in the morning and leave those adorable puppies.

My other favorite thing is we have this toy that is meant for a cat, it is a fish that is on a string and the string is hooked to a pole. Whenever we pull it out our dogs go nuts, they will chase that thing for hours if we would let them. They are so tired and panting like crazy but will not stop playing. Once we are done and put the toy away they try everything in there power to get it down and play with it some more.

I don't think I could ask for two more adorable friends, and am so glad I did not have the will power to say no to buying Lily when we bought her. Even though she way way to much money. She was so worth it.

ONE OF THE BEST WEEKS OF MY LIFE!!!!

So this week has been amazing. I thought it was going to be crazy and stressful, but it turns out it has been one of the best weeks of my life. I wrote my Mid-Term on Sunday, I felt I did decent, not amazing though. I got my mark back the other day and I got 80%. I was so thrilled as the class average was 68%. Then Monday I got my braces and everything went really well. My mouth is a little sore, but because I can hardly eat anything I have lost like 5 pounds in one week. I have also been so good at keeping up with my goals. I have been reading everyday. I finished the Pearl of Great Price the other day and am now in the 5th chapter of Genesis. I have run almost everynight these past two weeks. My body feels so amazing. I have so much more energy, strength, and I can fit into pants I have not fit into in like 2 years. Okay then to top of my amazing week, yesterday Mark, myself and some friend of ours went into Edmonton. I had to write my Mock Nacor, I could not believe how many year two students did not take advantage of this mock test. There was 4 people there in total, two who had failed the real Nacor and myself and one other year two student. Anyways the test is set up the same way as my real Nacor in June, and you have to get a 63% to pass, well I got 86%. I was so thrilled. Then after my test us and the Harkers went and did some Snowboarding, it was my first time and I loved it, I fell a lot and am pretty soar today but it was so worth it. What an amazing week, and all I have to say to end my Blog today is that with God all things are possible.


I also thought I would post some pictures from Christmas so enjoy