29.50

Tonight my sweet hubby let me get out of the house for a work out as me and Macie have been stuck inside all week sicker then dogs. I was finally feeling better today and desperately wanted to go work out, so I headed out after Macie went to bed. I got on the treadmill and couldn't believe how much energy I had for how sick I had been all week. What happened next was awesome, every 5 minutes I kept going faster and faster and it felt incredible. After 29 minutes and 50 seconds I completed 5 KM's. It was awesome and I couldn't believe I did it in under 30 minutes. 3 weeks ago I ran my first 5KM's in over a year and it took me 35 minutes so I thought it would be quit a while before I could do it in under 30 minutes, but I proved myself wrong tonight. It is incredible how are bodies remember the movements and how quickly the muscles come back. My goal is in 6 weeks to run a 5K in under 27 minutes and run 7 Miles just over 11 KM's in one hour. I'll keep you posted on my progress.

CRUMBLING

Do you ever feel like your life is pointless, useless senseless. That you are going no where in life and accomplishing nothing. You have no friends and no life. You are just a fluff from a dandelion, of no worth and no use, and the one task you have been given in life you are so terrible at that you felt if your children got to choose again they would pick a different mother. Every day is the same thing get up, feed children, clean house,  yell at children, clean up puke, yell at children some more, feed children, clean house,  clean up puke, yell at children.  Just this same everyday routine of nonsense. Ugh how do you get out of that rut, how do you find Joy in doing the same boring things day in and day out. I don't mean that my children don't bring me Joy, they bring me more happiness and Joy then I can imagine, however the same boring stuff day in and day out is driving me crazy. Maybe it is just those winter blues talking, I hope it is just those winter blues talking. Maybe I should stop now before I say more and people think even that much less of me.

A series of unfortunate events!!!

It started last week when Macie got a small little cut on her eye, nothing serious but still annoying enough that it irritated her for a couple of days, then Friday my hubby headed to North Batteford for some snowboarding, I got the phone call at 8:30pm. "Umm kalinda this is Billy, Mark has been in an accident. He caught an edge while snowboarding and went down super hard knocking him out. The damages were some temporary memory lose a bad concussion and a smashed in face. His body is just finally starting to not be soar anymore. Then to top it off yesterday while me and my mom where at Motion Fitness working out Lily got her nail caught in something, we think the baby gate and ripped it almost fully out. When we got home I saw her limping and knew something was up, when my mom picked her up she saw blood. She would barley even let us touch it. So we took her to the Vet to get it checked and the poor little puppy had almost ripped the nail right out. They had to put her under and take the rest of it off and do some stitching and bandaging. She is now on lite duty and some antibiotics until everything heels. Although it was a rough week for my family, I know it could have been way worse and so grateful that we were being watched over.

My Little Buddy!!!

While I haven't lied at how difficult these past 2 1/2 months have been with Wade, however I need to give some credit where credit is due.

- He is a phenominal sleeper, already sleeping through the night on average 9 to 10 hrs, this past week he has been getting up but I think that is just from a growth spurt. Even though he has gotten up this past week it was only once and right back to sleep for another 6 hrs.

- He has the best smile ever, Mark calls it a mupppet smile. He just opens his mouth so wide and gets so into it.

- He loves to snuggle and gives the best snuggles even when he is not sleeping he loves to snuggle into mom and dads chest

- Even though his cry is loud and happening a little more then I would like, it sounds really cool. He has such a deep raspy voice. When he is not losing his mind I actually don't mind listening to it.

- He is such a Handsome little Dude and I love showing this handsome dude off.

Thanks so much to my awesome friend Jen for taking these adorable pictures of Wade

Sunday cuties

A 2 Year Old....

Well my two year old..

- Is one of the bravest kids I know, she has no fear when it comes to doing anything. Some of my favorite moments have been going down the Lloydminster water slide all by herself and going sledding down the hill in Ponoka all by herself.

- There is no question she is a strong willed kid. She doesn't have any problems giving us attitude and making sure we know what she wants and when she is upset with us.

- Is saying so many words it is crazy, she can say anything we say, and her sentences are coming along nicely. Some of my favorite words and sentences are... gong show, OK, Gampo and Papo (Grandma and Grandpa), Oange (Orange) Come on Daddy, Please Thank you your welcome all said at the same time.

- I don't think I can say it enough, but this girl LOVES swimming

- My Little Munchkin weighs about 24 lbs

- She is great at sharing food and it depends on the situation and the person weather or not she decides to share her toys.

- She wants to make lots and lots of friends but struggles a bit with kids her age as she is so loud and in your face, she gets along best with kids a couple of years older then her.

- She loves to sing especially Popcorn popping, Once there was a snowman, Wheels on the Bus, I am a Child of God, and My Little Pony

- I am sad to admit but she loves her shows. We try and stick to no more then a couple a week but since having Wade there has been almost one a day. I will admit it is nice for when we travel she is so good and just watches shows. Some of her favorites have been,  Finding Nemo, The Lion King, 101 Dalmations, The Jungle Book, Tangled (my favorite to watch with her) and My Little Pony

- She got her colors really fast especially yellow and blue, she is also really good at orange, pink, purple, white and black. Red, Green, Brown and grey are a sturggle for her but when she really focuses she can get any color when she doesn't almost every color is Yellow.

- Has been a great big sister to Wade and is so patient with all his crying, and the amount of time mommy has to give him.

- Is almost ready to be done with naps, we only nap her about 3 times a week

- Has one of the best laughs and smiles ever, although she almost always refuses to smile for a camera she melts hearts with that smile of hers

- Still has crazy blonde hair, I love curling it for her on Sundays, she looks so adorable.

- She definitely loves her play time, especially when mom and dad get right in there with her.

- Next to playing she really loves painting, playdough, and stickers.

- Is still my picky eater and I am trying my hardest to be patient with her, but it gets hard some days. It blows my mind how she can eat next to nothing some days and still function and such a high level.

- What else to say, so much. This girl is incredible and I love her to death she knows exactly what to do to make me smile. Her hugs and kisses are the best and even when she is giving attitude she is still fun.

Life changes

This year has a couple big milestones for me. My 30th birthday and our 10 year anniversary. Before we had kids it would have been a huge event with a good chunk of money spent. A two week vacation, someplace hot and some big gifts. The wordly joys we got to experience while being a double income family with no kids, I can't lie were awesome. However they were all short term gratifications. This morning as I was playing dress up with Macie and snuggling with Wade it brought me such peace knowing the joy and love I was feeling towards my kids was eternal. The vacations, nice clothes and toys, although they were fun will do nothing for us in the hereafter. I have so many goals for this new year, but the most important is to focus on being a good mother and nurture my children in the gospel and make sure they feel my love. That my children are getting my full attention. I do feel it is still important for me to have time for me and do some things I love, like workout, read, and dates with my hubby. However when I am with them I am with them and not focusing on 100 other things, just them. It has been interesting since I cut some stresses out of my life how already my relationship with Wade has gotten better. I am so blessed to have such beautiful children and thankful to my Heavenly Father for giving me the gift of motherhood. 

The Wood Cutters

This last weekend,October 12,Shawn Trainer, Jeff Jeanotte and I went up to Tuliby lake to cut some wood. The weather was perfect. Nice fall day to be in the woods. In conversations with one of the land owners, we were told about an awesome pile of spruce that was all piled up beside the road. All we had to do is cut it and split it. How nice and easy could it be? Two trees, two chainsaws, two pickups, one axe, and three hours later we had all the wood we could handle. It was a fun time with the boys, playing with our manly toys. In the end, we didn't need all that wood so we decided to donate it to a family in our Branch. That was a good feeling as the family members came out and thanked us for all the fire wood. I haven't done something that gratifying in along time. I don't know the extend to which they needed it, but it can help them heat their house this winter and save some money. I am grateful for opportunities to serve, it truly brings me closer to God.

Christmas Adventures!!

This year Christmas was full of traveling, shopping, eating, swimming, sledding and of course seeing family. We headed to Ponoka from Saturday until Christmas morning to hang out with my parents. We did a quick trip to Airdie in there to visit my brother and a day in Red Deer at an awesome swimming pool. We also took Macie sledding for the first time as the weather was gorgeous and there was tons of snow. Macie loved it and of course had no fear. Christmas morning was fun and Macie loved opening presents and also being Santa and handing everybody else there presents. After the excitement of Christmas morning we headed to Calgary to my sisters house where all my family showed up for dinner and visiting, even my Grandma Prive was able to make it. It was such a great time and my sister did such a wonderful job hosting. That night we then headed to Lethbridge and stayed a couple nights at the Holiday Inn where we meet up with Mark's family and did some swimming at the hotel, dinner, and mini golf. I always love visiting Mark's family, it is always too short of a visit, they are so good at always planning something fun to do when we come visit and taking the time to drop everything going on in there busy lives to hang out with us. We then headed back home on Saturday and I have got to brag for a second about how amazing the kids where for the way home. Macie just snuggled into her car seat with Nanie's (her blankets), apple jack, and lily JR (her stuffed puppy) and watched a ton of shows and didn't fuss once, and Wade slept, ate and had one 20 minute cry season. They were little angels. Christmas was definitely a good one this year, it was nice to not have it just be all about the presents, but mostly about visiting family, having fun, singing Christmas Carols, watching Christmas shows and being with our children. I hope we have many more Christmas's like this in the future.

The best pic we could get of Wade in his Sunday Christmas outfit

and the best pic we could get of Macie in her Sunday Christmas Outfit

ready to go sledding

This brave little girl went down all by herself and had smiles on the whole way

finally starting to give us some smiles this week

Many naps were in her carseat

TURNING TWO!!!

 The day started out with being a total nightmare for me, Wade was crying and fussy all day. I literally could not put him down for a second without him losing his mind and even while I held him he was losing his mind. I was on the brink of a nervous breakdown and to make it worse I got my period the day before so I knew I wasn't even going to be able to go swimming with Macie for her birthday which made me so sad. However some how thorough all the insanity and frustration the swimming party turned out to be awesome and even my cake that fell apart ended up being delicious. We ended up doing presents for Macie when Mark came home for lunch as we asked that no presents be brought to her birthday party as she already has so many toys. We mostly just got her books and puzzles and also ended up being bad parents and gave her her big Christmas present that we couldn't fit in the vehicle, to take with us at Christmas, to her as a Birthday Present. Good thing she wouldn't know the difference this year. Then that night we headed to the pool where we invited all of our friends, a good chunk of people showed up. The Isackson's, Kuehn's, Jeanotte's, Fyfe's, Bennett's and the Swendsen's. Then we headed back to our house for cake and ice cream, the Passey's showed up for that part. Even though Mom was stressed to the max, thankfully the Birthday girl had a great day and loved everything about getting spoiled with presents, swimming, friends and cake. I am so glad I kept her party low key and easy this year, I couldn't imagine if I had planned to go all out and my day ended up like it did how I would have done it all. I am really starting to like this outlook on life of making things simple and stress free.

someone is in slide heaven

she knew exactly what to do