Best yet!!!

Just had my best workout today since getting pregnant with Wade last January. It felt incredible. I was able to push my body hard enough to run 10 KM's in one hour. I can fell my body getting more and more ready every workout for my half marathon. Next Saturday I start my official 12 week training for it. So in 13 weeks from now is the big day.

Some little updates

I know I have been a big slacker on updating on Wade so as we are driving to Edmonton for our family day fun I thought I would write a quick update on this little buddy of mine. 

- he is a rolling machine and goes from stomach to back and back to stomach. He just keeps rolling and rolling.

- He loves playing with toys.

- still spits up all day but is a much happier more content little boy.

- goes to bed between 8 and 9 every night is up at 5 for a quick feed then back to bed till about 8. 

- he has the best smile ever. He gets so into it. 

- looks more and more like Mark everyday.

- doesn't giggle for us a whole lot but loves talking to us and telling us stories.

- has a good set of lungs on him. His cry when he is super upset is beyond loud. 

- loves loves loves snuggles and I love everything about that. 

- has crazy long beautiful eyelashes, lucky kid.

Clifford!!!

Macie's favourite 20 minute shows has finally switched from my little pony's to Clifford and I couldn't be more thrilled. I always let her watch a little show in the morning while I do her hair and then I go and get ready if I am not ready yet. Today when I came downstairs from getting ready I saw this. I thought it was so adorable watching Clifford while snuggling with her favourite puppy. 

Photo Dump

Date night with Macie, we went to the college Basketball game together

torturing the puppies like usual

hello big boy

being silly

she loves coloring on herself more then the paper lately

painting is one of her favorite activities

how adorable are my kiddos

one of Mark's sweet 14 days of Valentines

fell asleep while she was playing in her bedroom

Love his big eyes

go canada

pumpkin pancakes, Macie devoured them. They only have three ingredients pumpkin, eggs, and cinnamon

this girl loves cheese

cheese please

A Rebuttal

OK some awesome things going on right now....

1. I am back at work two days a week. It has been nice to have a little break, a little extra spending money and to get back into Opticianing.

2. Mark has been doing the 14 days of valentines, and every morning I wake up to a sweet surprise. He is such an amazing man and I wish I didn't take so much of my frustration out on him. 

3. Wade has had huge improvements, he still spits up all day and we are getting use to it, but he has so many more happy pleasant moments. There are now more good days then bad. 

4. Mark got a raise the other day which will help with how expensive life is.

5. Macie's terrible two stage hasn't lasted long and she is such a good girl, she has her moments here and there but what kid doesn't. Overall hanging out with this little girl is pretty fantastic. 

6. With Mark's bonus we got some much needed debt paid off and are so close to being debt free besides a mortgage I can just taste it. 

7. I finally found a half marathon to do on a Saturday. The Millarville half marathon and it looks awesome. Training has been going well, even though the scale is not dropping I am feeling more toned and runs are going so well. The other day I did 6.2 miles in an hour. Almost to that 7 miles in an hour. 

8. Being in the Young Women's Presidency has been an amazing experience. The president is such an amazing women and I love spending time with her, and our girls are seriously the best. I couldn't ask for a more amazing group of Young Women. 

Drive Me Crazy

There are some things in my life that are driving me absolutely crazy, so I thought maybe if I just write about them and get them off my chest I can grow up, move on and see how silly I am for getting so worked up over these things. So here is the list...

1. My Hair, I hate the way the hairdresser cut it, it looks awful, nothing like what I asked for, plus I also hate this stage it is in off falling out non-stop, when I brush it it is a knotted disaster no matter how much I condition, to sum it up I Hate my Hair. It was like this after Macie as well, it wasn't until she was about 8 months old before it started feeling normal again.

2. The Weather, I am so cabin fever it is not even funny, I never realized how hard it was going to be to get out of the house with a newborn.

3. Sick kids, Macie has been sick for about two months now with a cold/fever, It will go away for a week and then come back for 10 days, then go away for a week then come back for 10 days. It is really hard to establish routines in life when you constintely have to reschedule your life due to a sick kid.

4. These extra 15 lbs I can not lose, which brings me to another point, that nothing fits me. I have one pair of jeans, two pairs of leggings and 4 shirts that I can wear. I love my wardrobe and I want it back so bad. The weight just fell off with Macie but with Wade I lost the first 30 lbs so quickly it was crazy but these last 15 to 20 lbs will not go away. It is not even so much about being skinny I just really want more clothes to wear, and don't wanna spend the money to go and buy new ones.

5. That I am so mixed up with my feelings right now. I have gone back to work two days a week for those that don't know yet. I love it but my feelings are all over the place right now. I want the best of both worlds but know it can't happen. I want to be a stay at home mom, but I also want a full time optical career. I seriously change my mind on an hourly basis.

6. One of Wade's cry. He has this one really soft deep raspy cry that I actually love it when he does it, not that I don't try and comfort him so it stops but I love holding him and having him cry that wonderful sound in my ear, but there is this one cry he does that makes you want to ripe your hair out, literally. It is so loud it is unbelievable. You honestly would think the child is being tortured. I get so grumpy and angry so quickly with everybody when we starts crying that way.

Well there she be my big whiny list of annoyences, know I just need to find a way to suck it up and move on with life and be happy for what I have and start to look more at the positives in life and all the good that is happening. 

GLORIOUSLY WONDERFUL DAY!!!

 I don't think today could have been any better. Mark is away all week this week and each day I wake up and wonder how I am going to get through today, plus another 3 days on top of that being all by myself, Well I was proven wrong today. An amazing friend offered to watch Wade today and so I took full advantage of that. I feel I hardly ever get good quality one on one time with Macie anymore and I hate that, so I planned a day full of things we used to do before Wade. First we started by heading to the pet store and checking out the bunnies, puppies, and fish. She is so cute at the pet store and loved the kisses she was getting from the bulldog pup. Next we came home had a quick snack and game of hide and seek and then headed to the pool for some swimming. It is only $2 from 12-1. Macie's favorite thing to do today was jumping off the side into the pool, she did it about 20 times in a row. Then we headed home and had some lunch, sang Let it Go from "Frozen" about 100 times, did some coloring and then headed back to pick up Wade. Macie was so good and it was so nice to have some one on one time with her. After I picked up Wade I headed to Motion Fitness for a good 7KM run and a bit of muscle toning while the kids went to the daycare there. I just have to say genius of these fitness facilities to start putting child care in for mom's. I go almost everyday for 2 hours and it is so nice to get that break and a chance to de-stress. Then we came home had some supper, played with Play Dough and got some great snuggles from Wade. At 7:15 I was getting ready to make a bottle for Macie when I realized I had no Milk. Great I thought, Macie is exhausted and know I have to lug two kids in and out of walmart for some stupid Milk. At the very end of our quick trip Macie was being so good that I told her we could go and get a cookie from McDonald's and that is when the sweet lady beside me paid for our cookies, Seriously could my day have gotten any better, yet it could snuggles, books and bottles with Macie and she fell asleep in about 2 seconds. Wade has also been a dream the whole night, didn't make a peep at walmart and made cute silly noises on the floor as I read books to Macie. I am so grateful for my amazing day and all the people in my life who helped make it amazing.

29.50

Tonight my sweet hubby let me get out of the house for a work out as me and Macie have been stuck inside all week sicker then dogs. I was finally feeling better today and desperately wanted to go work out, so I headed out after Macie went to bed. I got on the treadmill and couldn't believe how much energy I had for how sick I had been all week. What happened next was awesome, every 5 minutes I kept going faster and faster and it felt incredible. After 29 minutes and 50 seconds I completed 5 KM's. It was awesome and I couldn't believe I did it in under 30 minutes. 3 weeks ago I ran my first 5KM's in over a year and it took me 35 minutes so I thought it would be quit a while before I could do it in under 30 minutes, but I proved myself wrong tonight. It is incredible how are bodies remember the movements and how quickly the muscles come back. My goal is in 6 weeks to run a 5K in under 27 minutes and run 7 Miles just over 11 KM's in one hour. I'll keep you posted on my progress.

CRUMBLING

Do you ever feel like your life is pointless, useless senseless. That you are going no where in life and accomplishing nothing. You have no friends and no life. You are just a fluff from a dandelion, of no worth and no use, and the one task you have been given in life you are so terrible at that you felt if your children got to choose again they would pick a different mother. Every day is the same thing get up, feed children, clean house,  yell at children, clean up puke, yell at children some more, feed children, clean house,  clean up puke, yell at children.  Just this same everyday routine of nonsense. Ugh how do you get out of that rut, how do you find Joy in doing the same boring things day in and day out. I don't mean that my children don't bring me Joy, they bring me more happiness and Joy then I can imagine, however the same boring stuff day in and day out is driving me crazy. Maybe it is just those winter blues talking, I hope it is just those winter blues talking. Maybe I should stop now before I say more and people think even that much less of me.

A series of unfortunate events!!!

It started last week when Macie got a small little cut on her eye, nothing serious but still annoying enough that it irritated her for a couple of days, then Friday my hubby headed to North Batteford for some snowboarding, I got the phone call at 8:30pm. "Umm kalinda this is Billy, Mark has been in an accident. He caught an edge while snowboarding and went down super hard knocking him out. The damages were some temporary memory lose a bad concussion and a smashed in face. His body is just finally starting to not be soar anymore. Then to top it off yesterday while me and my mom where at Motion Fitness working out Lily got her nail caught in something, we think the baby gate and ripped it almost fully out. When we got home I saw her limping and knew something was up, when my mom picked her up she saw blood. She would barley even let us touch it. So we took her to the Vet to get it checked and the poor little puppy had almost ripped the nail right out. They had to put her under and take the rest of it off and do some stitching and bandaging. She is now on lite duty and some antibiotics until everything heels. Although it was a rough week for my family, I know it could have been way worse and so grateful that we were being watched over.