SAD, DISTURBRING, PAINFUL, SCARY!!!

This post is not for memory sake but more for venting and hopefully somehow put my mind at ease. I may even delete it after a while so it will hopefully leave my memory forever somehow, but night after night of horrible dreams and getting ready to deliver my first baby I feel I need to talk about it. Also as news is starting to give more information I feel there is no reason why I can't talk about. They never told me I couldn't.

On November 7th 2011 The Eyewear Place had a new girl start that day (I can not reveal her name) She seemed a little bit cold and distant but I thought maybe she was a little nervous. On her second day of work I tried to open up to her a little and get to know her so asked her questions like have you lived hear your whole life? are you married, boyfriend? do you have any kids? her reply was no never, I hate kids and will never have them. Okay I thought she is a little bit on the cold side, but that is okay not everybody loves kids. The week went on and found I did not get to know a lot about her. I remember always feeling bad though, because both me and Melissa were crazy pregnant and she was a very big boned girl and you could of mistaken her for being pregnant and whenever customers came in the store they were always saying, wow what is with the water in your store everybody is pregnant. The week came to an end, and I was not feeling to awesome about her replacing Melissa as the next receptionist but felt it was not my call to make. I heard some rumors around the office that they were thinking of letting her go because her personality was not very friendly and warm with the patients and even with us girls and Dr.Z. I was not surprised to hear this. Monday Nov 14th was a normal day, then Tuesday the new girl was getting very sick with a cold and you could tell by that night that she was probably going to be sick the next day with how terrible she was sounding. I had the next day off as well so did not now what happened, but Thursday my Manager called me at home saying that Dr.Z was sick, her son was sick and she would not be coming to work, and the new girl was sick yesterday and might not be at work today. I was to get to work early call all the patients and send everybody home as there is not much to do when the Doc is out sick. There was only me and Sara in the office that day and talked lots about the new girl and how we don't see her staying here. Friday morning I was driving to work and my ear was bothering me so when I got to work I grabbed a Q-tip and went to the bathroom to clean it there was some garbage in the can and I quickly lifted it to put my dirty Q-tip at the bottom of the trash when I saw a huge wad of paper towel covered in blood. It immediately grossed me out and I covered it back up and washed my hands. I did not say anything as I new it was someone in the office and did not want to embarass anyone. Around 11:00 Melissa asked me where the new girl was and I said I don't know, Melissa said she has not seen here in like 30 minutes. Joanne went to look for her and found her in the pre-testing room sitting in the dark. Joanne asked her if she was okay, she said I am just feeling light headed. At lunch time Paula took her home. I figured she was the one having her period and it was really heavy and giving her lots of problems. As an office we discussed it and we all thought she was not suited for the office, the manager and the Doc decided they were going to let her go. The day came to an end, the weekend was our Christmas party which she did not show up for, and then Sunday was a day that changed my life a little bit. Mark and I got home from church and there was a message on the answering machine to call Constable (name I will not give out) he wanted to meet with me and discuss "the new girl". I was freaking out and thought for sure she was dead or something crazy like that. He came to my house, asked many questions asked me to discuss my week with her and then the most disturbing question of all came, "Did you know, or suspect that she was pregnant" I said no I had no idea and thought that was almost impossible because of the way she talked about hating children. The Constable left and I was baffled so many ideas going though my mind. They of course were not allowed to tell me anything. Finally around 4:30 I was so disturbed I called my manager and talked to her about it as she was also questioned by the constable. We both felt there was a good chance she other hurt herself to abort the baby, or had the baby and did something with it. We decided to end the conversation and discuss it with everybody at work on Monday. Monday was a very crazy day with one of our co-workers having a friend that lived in the same apartment building and said cops were there all weekend tearing up the apartment, going through dumpsters, and pulling up sewer drains. Her friend was informed by someone else in the building that this girl had a baby that Friday morning, disposed of it and then proceeded to go to work. Us girls at work kept it on the down low all week not saying anything to anybody, and just waiting to hear things from others and the news. Word spread like wild fire around lloydminster and more and more people new what was happening articles were talking about the RCMP searching for something at the landfill but would not discuss in details what they were looking for. Finally this morning there was a clipping on the Booster's website that they had found human remains at the landfill. I have posted the article at the end of my blog if you want to read it. These past two weeks have been the most disturbing two weeks of my life and can not seam to put it past me what horrible thing this girl did. You hear about these things on the news or watch it on crime shows, but you would never expect to know someone or be involved in something so horrific. I can't help but cry as I think of loved ones of mine that have not been able to have children yet, or Mark and I and the struggles we had to get pregnant, and then there is this human being who has such disrespect for life, that she would think of this precious baby as trash. I don't know if I will ever get to know the whole story, but I do hope justice is served and this women gets a punishment she deserves. I hope somehow I can put this whole disturbing memory out of my head and just focus on the birth of our baby girl.


Human remains found at Lloydminster landfill - Lloydminster Meridian Booster - Alberta, CA