Sweet Cobalt, WHAT??

Yes I am saying sweet Cobalt. I think someone gave Cobalt the memo that if she did not smarten up in the next couple of months she was out of hear before baby came. Cobalt is a wonderful cat for the most part to Mark and I, but with others she is a little brat. She will come up to you and ask you to pet her and then all of a sudden start hissing at you and scratching at you. She has such a temper and the strangest things will set her off. These last couple of months though Mark and I have tried really hard to make her feel special. Ex: leaving the door open at night so she feels welcomed to come and sleep in the bedroom with us, taking time out of our day to pet her, making sure she gets treats when the puppies get treats, letting her be inside when she wants. What a difference it has made in her personality. About a month ago we had friends over and she sat on the guys lap and let him pet her for 30 minutes and never got mad. She plays back with Lily, when Lily tries to play with her, this is the first Christmas without a broken ornament. It is actually kind of sweet how she just sits under the tree and sleeps. Instead of trying to climb up it and destroy everything. I love that I am starting to have loving feelings towards Cobalt again, and wanting her to be in our home, instead of trying to find ways to convince Mark to get rid of her. As long as she does not try to smoother Macie or sleep in her crib, she is hear to stay.

understanding Attawapiskat

The name alone will give a person a head-ache, never mind the story and accusations of how the government has let this people down. This is a small indian village of 2000 people who live near James Bay in northern Ontario. With the cold weather here, these people are living in very poor shelters, and even worse living conditions to say the least. Well, CTV and CBC will try to send Canadians down a spiral of missing facts as they show only the footage shoot by a NDP MP, showing the horrid conditions that the people are living in because the Government has let them down. Listen to more of the story that CTV, CBC, the NDP and the Liberal's don't want real tax paying Canadians to see.

Sun News : Ezra's viral video

If you watch this and agree with it SHARE IT... Lets get the message out there.

DECEMBER 25!!!

There is a secret part of me that I am divulging to everybody right now that kind of wants Macie to come on Christmas Day. Not that I want my body to wait that much longer, but I think there is something special, and magical about being born on the day we celebrate our Savior's birth. Most people say oh poor girl that is going to suck when she starts having birthday's. As her mom I don't see it that way. She will never have to go to school on her birthday, when she gets older she will never have to work on her birthday. People say "ya but she gets the raw end of the deal with gifts and birthday food and parties". I see it differently, it gives me a challenge every year to come up with something extra special so Macie feels super special on her birthday. I already have tons of fun ideas to make her feel special. Plus in our family we want to try and not make Christmas about gifts and more about spending time together as a family, celebrating the Birth of our Savior and helping others in need. Very little gifts for all is the goal, except Macie as she would get Christmas and Birthday gifts. Parties can be just as fun, or better. Snowboarding trips with friends, ice princess themes, having unbirthday parties in the summer time. I have a funny feeling that if I just let nature take it's course and don't get induced she will come that day, especially keeping up with family traditions. I have a nephew who's birthday is on July 4th, a niece with a birthday on November 11th, once every 6 years my birthday fall's on Labor Day, and I think a sister-in-law who's birthday can fall on August long weekend. (sorry Chelsey can't remember the day 100% but I am almost positive it is very early in august and probably falls on the first monday in august every 6 years as well). Although I have been getting contractions more and more stronger the past couple of days and really she could come tomorrow when I get my membrane stripped or soon after, but if not, I am kind of leaning towards no induction and just seeing what day this little girl chooses to come into the world and not what day the Doctors, Mark and I decide she should.

BEEF STEW!!!

I have been a house wife is the term you could use for over 7 years now, and in those seven years I have never made stew, meatloaf, a turkey dinner (have helped with this one though) and probably many other traditional meals. I have decided with my new role as stay at home mother this is going to change. So today I made my first Beef Stew, had to call my mom for one questions, but other then that I did it all on my own and it was crazy easy and as I eat it right now super delicious. I don't know why I hold myself back so much in things and get scared to try new things. Especially when it comes to food and crafts. In these past two weeks I have tried two new meals now and both turned out delicious. The best part is I made enough to get a freezer meal out of it. As of right now I have 7 freezer meals sitting in my freezer and am adding another one tomorrow. Hoping this help once baby comes.

p.s. if anyone has any really good freezer meal's please send my way, I would like to get about 4 to 6 more made before Macie comes, especially if she is late.

DOCTOR'S ORDERS!!

Yesterday I had my 39 week Doctor's Appointment. We started off with the usual, checking blood pressure, asking questions. Then we hopped up on the table to see where baby was sitting (and she has dropped, yay) and to listen to her heartbeat. As we were finishing up she told me that lots of walking helps (and I told her we go for a good 40 minute to one hour walk every night) and then she looks at Mark and says "Also Make him happy" at first Mark did not know what she was talking about, but then realized what she said and had this cute giddy smirk on his face. Then the even better news came, if she is not hear by next week we schedule an Induction for the 21st of December. Which means for sure we will be meeting our little one in 14 days. Forever it felt like this was never going to happen, but know with a for sure date in sight I can really start my count down and if she comes sooner great if not I will have about two weeks.

NOT YET!!!

Well I have had some strong feelings that Macie was other going to come on Dec 5th or Dec 17th. I don't know why such difference in the dates just those have been my feelings. So seeing as it is 5:41 on Dec 5th I am feeling more and more strongly that this baby is going to be late for us. Which I am okay with, Mark has a final exam on Dec 16th, so she other needs to come within the next couple of days or not until the 17th, and because I love that man so much I asked Heavenly Father if I didn't come early I would be more then willing to suffer it out for his sake and be a couple of days late, and it's looking and feeling like I get to suffer it out :) So far it has not been to bad occupying my time. I have got the upstairs of my house almost cleaned to perfection, and have been able to keep it clean, with the exception of Mark's school, teaching, and young mens books. For the last couple of days, and don't see why I can't keep it up until baby comes. Our basement is getting more and more organized every day and getting closer to being totally done. Today I got to watch one of my all time favorite Movie "Newsies" with my good Friends Kristi and start work on a really cute advent calender, and I have something else planned for everyday this week except Thursday. It is next week that I am not looking forward too as I am running out of ideas of things to do to not let time creep by and as well to be somewhat productive with all this time I have off. I am open to any suggestions of what you other ladies did to help time pass well waiting for that first baby to come. Oh and I walk and walk and walk hoping to get this sweetheart out sooner but it does not look like it is working. So again feeling like she is going to be a late one please ideas to help the time to pass would be appreciated.

SAD, DISTURBRING, PAINFUL, SCARY!!!

This post is not for memory sake but more for venting and hopefully somehow put my mind at ease. I may even delete it after a while so it will hopefully leave my memory forever somehow, but night after night of horrible dreams and getting ready to deliver my first baby I feel I need to talk about it. Also as news is starting to give more information I feel there is no reason why I can't talk about. They never told me I couldn't.

On November 7th 2011 The Eyewear Place had a new girl start that day (I can not reveal her name) She seemed a little bit cold and distant but I thought maybe she was a little nervous. On her second day of work I tried to open up to her a little and get to know her so asked her questions like have you lived hear your whole life? are you married, boyfriend? do you have any kids? her reply was no never, I hate kids and will never have them. Okay I thought she is a little bit on the cold side, but that is okay not everybody loves kids. The week went on and found I did not get to know a lot about her. I remember always feeling bad though, because both me and Melissa were crazy pregnant and she was a very big boned girl and you could of mistaken her for being pregnant and whenever customers came in the store they were always saying, wow what is with the water in your store everybody is pregnant. The week came to an end, and I was not feeling to awesome about her replacing Melissa as the next receptionist but felt it was not my call to make. I heard some rumors around the office that they were thinking of letting her go because her personality was not very friendly and warm with the patients and even with us girls and Dr.Z. I was not surprised to hear this. Monday Nov 14th was a normal day, then Tuesday the new girl was getting very sick with a cold and you could tell by that night that she was probably going to be sick the next day with how terrible she was sounding. I had the next day off as well so did not now what happened, but Thursday my Manager called me at home saying that Dr.Z was sick, her son was sick and she would not be coming to work, and the new girl was sick yesterday and might not be at work today. I was to get to work early call all the patients and send everybody home as there is not much to do when the Doc is out sick. There was only me and Sara in the office that day and talked lots about the new girl and how we don't see her staying here. Friday morning I was driving to work and my ear was bothering me so when I got to work I grabbed a Q-tip and went to the bathroom to clean it there was some garbage in the can and I quickly lifted it to put my dirty Q-tip at the bottom of the trash when I saw a huge wad of paper towel covered in blood. It immediately grossed me out and I covered it back up and washed my hands. I did not say anything as I new it was someone in the office and did not want to embarass anyone. Around 11:00 Melissa asked me where the new girl was and I said I don't know, Melissa said she has not seen here in like 30 minutes. Joanne went to look for her and found her in the pre-testing room sitting in the dark. Joanne asked her if she was okay, she said I am just feeling light headed. At lunch time Paula took her home. I figured she was the one having her period and it was really heavy and giving her lots of problems. As an office we discussed it and we all thought she was not suited for the office, the manager and the Doc decided they were going to let her go. The day came to an end, the weekend was our Christmas party which she did not show up for, and then Sunday was a day that changed my life a little bit. Mark and I got home from church and there was a message on the answering machine to call Constable (name I will not give out) he wanted to meet with me and discuss "the new girl". I was freaking out and thought for sure she was dead or something crazy like that. He came to my house, asked many questions asked me to discuss my week with her and then the most disturbing question of all came, "Did you know, or suspect that she was pregnant" I said no I had no idea and thought that was almost impossible because of the way she talked about hating children. The Constable left and I was baffled so many ideas going though my mind. They of course were not allowed to tell me anything. Finally around 4:30 I was so disturbed I called my manager and talked to her about it as she was also questioned by the constable. We both felt there was a good chance she other hurt herself to abort the baby, or had the baby and did something with it. We decided to end the conversation and discuss it with everybody at work on Monday. Monday was a very crazy day with one of our co-workers having a friend that lived in the same apartment building and said cops were there all weekend tearing up the apartment, going through dumpsters, and pulling up sewer drains. Her friend was informed by someone else in the building that this girl had a baby that Friday morning, disposed of it and then proceeded to go to work. Us girls at work kept it on the down low all week not saying anything to anybody, and just waiting to hear things from others and the news. Word spread like wild fire around lloydminster and more and more people new what was happening articles were talking about the RCMP searching for something at the landfill but would not discuss in details what they were looking for. Finally this morning there was a clipping on the Booster's website that they had found human remains at the landfill. I have posted the article at the end of my blog if you want to read it. These past two weeks have been the most disturbing two weeks of my life and can not seam to put it past me what horrible thing this girl did. You hear about these things on the news or watch it on crime shows, but you would never expect to know someone or be involved in something so horrific. I can't help but cry as I think of loved ones of mine that have not been able to have children yet, or Mark and I and the struggles we had to get pregnant, and then there is this human being who has such disrespect for life, that she would think of this precious baby as trash. I don't know if I will ever get to know the whole story, but I do hope justice is served and this women gets a punishment she deserves. I hope somehow I can put this whole disturbing memory out of my head and just focus on the birth of our baby girl.


Human remains found at Lloydminster landfill - Lloydminster Meridian Booster - Alberta, CA

HEY BABY IT'S CHRISTMAS ALL OVER, AGAIN!!

Well once again my favorite time of year has come. I posted about it last year, will post about it this year, and will probably post about it every year. I love everything about Christmas, but my most favorite things are the music, decorations (which we put up tonight), how everybody seams so happy, and doing a kind deed for someone every year. I also love wrapping presents and making them all pretty, eating the delicious goodies, tobogganing, using my advent calendar ( I bought it from Jen Isackson a couple years ago and love it), finding ways to hide Mark's gifts and trying to surprise him, and this year of course is going to be the best, with it being my first Christmas as a Mom. I have to say this is the first year I have not been excited about gifts, and am not even remotely interested in snooping, it must be because I already know what the best gift is going to be this year and hopefully she will be unwrapping soon. I am so prepared for Christmas this year and am pretty much all done shopping, have maybe 4 more things to bye, and everything that I have bought is already wrapped. I thought it would be a good idea to not leave it to the last minute as my life is going to get pretty crazy in about two weeks. So Merry Christmas to everybody and hope you all have a great December.

Lily not to impressed with being dressed in the Santa Hat


My favorite part of my decorations, the fireplace where our stockings hang. I truly believe Mark and I have the cutest stockings ever thanks to my wonderful sister who made them for us. (I am hoping you can help make Macie's with me next year)


I got this stocking for Macie at wal-mart, nothing to exciting but thought it would be a cute keepsake. It says Baby's First Christmas 2011


Also believe this is the cutest advent calendar ever. (Thanks Jen for being so crafty)

BABY WHISPERER!!!

Yesterday afternoon I finally finished the book "The Secrets of The Baby Whisperer" by Tracy Hogg. Of all the baby books I read this was without a doubt my favorite. Good information, resources, and helped calm a lot of my fears. I just hope I can understand how to use her advice to make the transition into motherhood easier. As I think about how clueless I really am, this book helped me to understand better how we can hopefully have a wonderful first year with baby. So I am really not one that can give advice yet on how to be a good mother, but advice on books that help, I have to say this has been my favorite.

BITTER/SWEET!!!

Today was my last day of work at the Eyewear Place for a whole year, well I stay at home and love and care for Macie. It was such a bitter sweet feeling for me as I have loved these past 5 months of my life. I can't begin to express how grateful I am for them offering me my old job back, I think I would have lost all the marballs in my head by now if I was still at Superstore. It has been so wonderful to be excited to go to work everyday and come home from work everyday with a smile on my face. It makes it so much easier to know that when I go back in a year it is to a place I love and enjoy.
These past 5 months have been filled with so much laughter I wish I would have written some of them down in my journal. Paula, Melissa, Joanne, Dr. Zidar, and Sara I will miss seeing your wonderful faces everyday. Please still be there when I come back.

Me and Melissa on our last day of work together. She is due a month after me and was suppose to be done work around December 23rd, but is having some complications with her pregnancy and actually finished a day before me. She is being induced 3 weeks earlier and we might be having our babies on or very close to the same day.


My 4 favorite girls, I still can't believe how well 4 women, especially two that were pregnant at the time got along so well together, and had so much fun working everyday together. Dr. Zidar bought us all Pizza for my last day of work and Melissa stopped in for a visit.

Me and Melissa opening our gifts from our co-workers. They gave me a gift certificate to Charles Lamb Photography so Mark, Macie and I can go get family pictures done. So sweet I can't wait to use it.